Above ground after long and terrifying Dark Night of the Soul

Hello!

I can't express the immense joy I feel to be here, above ground, after a long Dark Night of the Soul.

Nine months ago I had to move back to Sweden from Kenya, I broke up with my - now ex - partner and took a plunge into my wildest fears. What it was like? It was terrifying; it was being submerged in raw and naked horror.
Did anything good come out of it?  

Oh yes! 🙏🏻

As a Scorpio I've lived my share of darkness but never doubted that I would be strong enough to conquer it. This last time though, I wasn't too sure... It's been my worst Dark night so far. It begun with my partner going ice cold and unloving on me and came to a point where my physical body started aching badly, I couldn't sleep at night.

I don't remember him initiating even one hug or a single kiss the entire time we spent together in Kenya. But he showed much appreciation for the girl he had hired for housekeeping and one day she came dressed in my clothes without them commenting on the reason for why with a whiff of breath... He would often praise her for being funny, talented, eager to learn and would stand half naked in the kitchen cooking together with her, laughing and having a good time. 

He could be quite nasty in Sweden too but in Kenya it was like he just cut the last strings to decency. He wold often - often as in every day - tell me what a fucking, stupid idiot I was. 

The last minutes I ever spoke with him was when we had a quarrel and he yelled at me that I was a worthless rat brought up by two pigs for parents (it appears he was of the opinion they had done a lousy job since I had had the audacity to answer truthfully on his question if he was ever as mean as his female cousin, while his male cousin was present to hear my answer).

At the time I was still in midst of mourning my mother who died suddenly from lung cancer the year before and I asked him not talk about her that way. 

He replied: - "I would take a piss on your mother!" I asked him again one week later -  and prior to my departure - if he really meant what he had said and he confirmed that he would definitely still take a piss on my mother. 

These were the moments I realized I had finally been confronted with a human being I could not  ever love into goodness. Normally in a relationship I'm willing to forgive anything - except infidelity - but my ex talking about my mother in this severely narcissistic manner... No. The love I once felt for that man withered on the spot. 

So I left him, moved from Nairobi to Stockholm, arrived in Arlanda broke and heartbroken. I had no money, no job and nowhere to live. I had to start over in everything. Next, a couple of friends betrayed me and my ex kidnapped my beloved fur child Toro, the dog I had fostered, cared for and loved from when he was only a tiny fluff ball - and decided I was never to see him again.

You can imagine the excruciating pain of loosing your child... (I will never get over it..) I went full-speed-head-on-face-frontal into concrete ground. It was a bloody mess...

What finally saved me was that my angels - both physical in form of family, true friends & therapists - and non physical like Archangels Michael & Gabriel as well as my grandmother and mother - never left my side. And my guides who asked me to pick up my cards and start my healing journey through helping others. To all of you I am forever grateful. 🙏🏻

As you might know the spiritual rewards we reap from not letting darkness devourer us, our soul and heart, that we keep on going even long after we took ourselves for dead - are of almost incomprehensible, unearthly beauty.

And so they've been for me. I will tell you all about it the upcoming days and weeks.

I made a promise to Spirit I would make myself available, a tool for universal Love to use wherever I can come in handy, with the purpose of helping Mama Earth to raise her vibrations. 

I see clearly today how we are not disconnected from one another. We are all in this together. 

Well... I guess however dark and ugly the journey, now I'm here: Reborn. Stronger, kinder and a far better Tarot Reader as my psychic abilities have been sharpened on the road. What was once ripped into shreds is eventually being healed and a new adventure arises from the ashes of all that's been burnt, buried and now finally transmuted into love. 

And Yes... I have forgiven. 

Love you much,

/Mariah & her angels 👼 🐶 👼 ⚔️ 🙏🏻

P.S.

It will take me a couple of days to dust off Mariah's Treats. Our products need to be  reviewed and updated. Our READINGS on the other hand are active from today and we will keep the prices lower this first month, throughout all of May.

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D.S.